Sometimes there are dreams that take longer to complete than others.
Sometimes we are awakened to a completely new dream.
And sometimes, our dreams get put on hold; but that doesn’t mean they’re dead.
I have loved learning practically since birth – my mom instilled a love for reading in me that has yet to diminish. I was also that weird kiddo that cried when her older brother got to go to school and she was too young to go. Over the years, I wanted to do my homework and get good grades – I was actually sad if I got sick and had to miss a day. As I got older, even while procrastination and senioritis began to set in slightly, and school started to seem less and less exciting, I still never imagined myself not going to college.
The past seven years have not gone the way I originally planned. And you know what? That’s okay. I have accepted the fact that no two people’s lives are ever going to look the same, so I don’t know why we as humans always try to shift and mold each other to fit our own individual standards of success. I had actually come to terms with the fact that I may not finish my degree, when I got a second chance to do so. I honestly don’t believe that every single person needs a college education – because to be honest, it is crazy expensive, and if you know what you want to do doesn’t require one, then why waste all that time and money? However, finishing school for me is completing a dream I didn’t think I harbored anymore for a little girl that sat at home doing work books at age four.
I tell you all of this for a reason… this past spring with the “relaunch” of the blog, I talked about a lot of plans I had, and I was truly excited to get them underway. The blog felt like a fresh beacon of creative hope when it seemed like I was a bit stuck in a rut. While several years old now, the blog is still a relatively new dream that holds a very special place in my heart. However, once the decision was made to return to school full-time, I found it increasingly harder to keep up with those assignments, as well as, trying to come up with content for ADI. This semester I have my heaviest work load yet, and I want to make sure that I’m taking the necessary steps to see this dream to the finish line.
Those of you that have been following for a while know that instead of a new year’s resolution, I try to choose one word or phrase to focus on at the beginning of each year which serves as a basis for all of my other goals. My word for 2018 is: Intentional. By choosing this word, I am hoping to make more intentional choices in my spiritual walk with Christ, as well as, my time, health, and finances – Instead of being complacent and just letting life run its course on me, I want to be actively trying to pursue more meaningful and positive things, which I will be honest was a struggle for me in 2017. I have relapsed on some healthy habits I used to have, and I want to make a conscious effort to get those back.
So, my lovely readers, I wanted to let you know, as hard as it is for me to step away from anything that I love as much as this – and you – I’m trying to practice what I preach here at A Dreamer’s Inkwell by saying that in order to fully focus on finishing one of my dreams, I’m going to have to make an intentional choice not to be as distracted by this one, so my posting will have to continue to be irregular (if at all) for a while. Not that I won’t ever pop in for a random post, but while some may be able to manage their time well enough to come up with full-time content for their blogs, go to school, and work, I am simply not there yet, so I’m trying to do better at prioritizing.
I would encourage you all to do the same if you’re feeling spread too thin, and maybe it feels like all of your dreams are fighting against one another – maybe you can take stock of what you can let go of for the time being in order to fully enjoy the moment you’re in right now.
Whatever dream you’re pursuing, whether it be being the best stay-at-home mom you can be, auditioning every day in an effort to land an acting gig…or finally finishing your degree, just remember what High School Musical taught us twelve years ago, “we’re all in this together.” And thanks for being a community willing to go on this journey with me!
“Work willingly at whatever you do,
as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.” – Colossians 3:23