“But I’ve been learning that sometimes the steps that feel the most backwards are the very steps that challenge us to press onward. It’s in the hard and ordinary that we learn how to overcome, it’s in the unimpressive where we make the most impact…” ~Jordan Lee
In a society constantly filled with social media filters and highlight reels, sometimes it’s easy to forget that none of us have it all together 100% of the time. While I try to make A Dreamer’s Inkwell extremely authentic when I do post, there are of course things that I don’t normally write about on purpose…
Well right now, it’s honesty hour, and I think I just need to get some things out in the open, because communication is key to connecting as a community, and if we’re all wearing masks we can only go so deep.
So this is me right now:
-I’m the worst at making myself get out of bed in the morning.
-I am in a state of what Dave Ramsey refers to as “Time Poverty”… in other words “so much to do, so little time.”
-I haven’t blogged at all this month.
-I am up to my brunette roots (with some gray hairs coming though at age 24, eek!) writing literary analyses and essays that should’ve been mostly finished by now.
-I haven’t cooked myself a “good” meal in…. well let’s just say… cereal, fast food, and ramen noodles are a lot quicker in a time impoverished schedule.
-I have been questioning some of the decisions I’ve made, while still trying to convince myself that I’m not.
-I have a hard time saying “no” to people because I hate disappointing anyone.
Why reveal all this to you today?
Because I have a feeling I’m not the only one trying to keep it all together, and feeling like I’m not really succeeding.
Because there are still a lot of areas where I have room to grow, and it’s okay to admit that to others.
And because, God is teaching me that often times the lessons we learn in the “daily grind” of life are key to establishing a greater faith.
“Jesus was sleeping at the back of the boat with his head on a cushion. Frantically they [his disciples] woke him up, shouting, “Teacher, don’t you even care that we are going to drown?” When he woke up, he rebuked the wind and said to the water, “Quiet down!” Suddenly the wind stopped, and there was a great calm. And he asked them, “Why are you so afraid? Do you still not have faith in me?” ~Mark 4:38-40
If we turn to Him, there is peace in the midst of not “being good enough.”
There is rest for the weary.
We will not drown.
Special shout out to Jordan Lee whose words from SoulScripts helped to inspire this post by encouraging me and reminding me that where I am right now matters!