Creativity Calls, Performing

Imperfectly Beautiful

I believe that the last time I really posted about performing on this blog I had talked about how I needed to take a break from playing characters in order to truly get to know myself and what I wanted. While this break was good for me, it turned out, in doing so, I discovered that performing is most definitely in my nature. I have been craving the opportunity to get to delve back into the creative process of acting for quite some time now.

After some acting opportunities presented themselves to me, I realized that if I was really going to get back into performing full-force again, then I needed one very important thing… an updated headshot.

For those of you who have had some experience in the acting world, you know that headshots are crucial. You also know that they aren’t normally extra glamorous. For a girl who is pretty much obsessed with bold lipstick and the classic cat-eye, the idea of being stripped down to very little makeup for this shoot did not excite me at all. It was also a challenge for a girl with a passion for fashion to have to wear simple clothes without accessorizing. The purpose in doing this is for directors to be able to easily envision you in the roll of any character, and to emphasize natural features without distractions.

The thing is, stripping away my makeup and accessories truly made me realize that it is still so hard for me to be completely confident in my own skin at times. Without all the extra stuff to help me express myself, I was left with just one thing to let people know who I am… just me.

As the photographer worked, she kept telling me how beautiful I was and how wonderful the pictures were turning out. As much as I wanted to believe her, for some reason, I just couldn’t. I felt so stiff and insecure; in my mind, the camera wasn’t trying to capture my beauty, but attempting to expose all of my flaws.

What am I trying so hard to prove anyway? Why am I so afraid that people will see that I’m not perfect?

With all of this already fresh on my mind, my pastor at church just so happened to start a series about really learning who we are in Christ and appreciating that person (I don’t call that a coincidence, I call that God knowing what I needed to hear haha)! One of his messages reminded me that I truly don’t have to try to prove myself to anyone. I was not created to live a life of striving to gain the approval of others; I was created by God to glorify Him by living a life of faith, hope, and love. I am not perfect, and I’m never going to be while I’m on this earth. But you know what? No one else is either; we can all stop comparing ourselves to one another like it’s some kind of contest, and just be our fabulous, individual selves! The most important thing to remember in all of this is…

 Though we aren’t perfect, Jesus is; that’s why we need Him.

 Christ’s love for us is perfect, and according to 1 John 4:18, perfect love casts out all fear. That means that we shouldn’t be afraid of being exposed for who we really are, rather, we should celebrate it! Life is so much more abundant when we just begin to accept who God intended us to be. I’m still learning how to do that, but I wanted to share my break through with all of you fellow dreamers out there, because I know firsthand that the lies of insecurity can snuff out the flames of your dream before the spark even has a chance to spread. So, I would just like to take this second to say…

You are so much more beautiful than you allow yourself to believe!!

I’m completely serious, so please, don’t take as long as I did to start believing it!

When I finally got the album of headshots, I began immediately picking them apart. I saw all the things wrong with me that it seemed everyone else was ignoring or just not talking about. But now, I truly can appreciate the photos because I’m learning how to accept that differences and imperfections are not only okay, but they’re beautiful because they showcase the work of God’s hands. He loves variety and He loves each of us!

Be kind to yourself today. Maybe even take your makeup off and own your differences. Let yourself fall in love with the person you really are. Believe people when they tell you that you’re beautiful and ignore the ones that try to put you down.

In the long run, a life of embracing our imperfections with confidence will always be more beautiful and inspiring than shutting everyone out because we’re too afraid to be seen for our true selves.

These images were taken by the up-and-coming and extremely talented photographer, Lauren, who just so happens to also be the sweetest person. I definitely recommend that you hop on over to Lauren Melanne Photography and take a gander at her work!

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