It’s my first blog post of the year, so I guess that means it has to be something extremely profound in order to propel us forward into the blank slate of 2015 with an energy and excitement like never before… no pressure though, right? I wouldn’t hold my breath for anything too philosophical if I were you, but as most do with the New Year, I have started to look at some changes that need to be made in my life, so I’m going to share with you a little bit – who knows? Maybe that will help to hold me accountable.
As 2014 came to a close, I began to contemplate what sort of things that I needed to work on in the upcoming year. I don’t like to call them resolutions, because so many times those are just something we throw out on New Year’s Eve like pennies in a wishing well and after January forget all about them until the next New Year’s Eve. Instead, I try to make general goals that I can gradually work toward, with maybe a few specific goals (like being able to run a 5K by spring, ask me in May and we’ll see if that one stuck or not). Something I heard on the KLOVE radio station has really helped me in making general goals in the past few years. One year they decided that instead of resolutions everyone should choose one word for the New Year that would encompass all their goals. It could be an attitude that needed to change, a specific goal, or whatever best suited you personally. Ever since then, I have chosen words that helped me in the areas I felt I needed to be focused on in that season of my life. This year, I have chosen a phrase instead of just one word.
Something I have realized more recently about myself is that I struggle with comparing myself to others and their lives. I will be perfectly content in my life and my decisions until I log onto Facebook and see that everyone else my age is getting married, graduating college, or whatever other shining moment they decide to post. Or maybe, I’ll have a conversation with someone, and in their opinion my college major isn’t a smart choice and they give me the “another one bites the dust face” that I’m so fond of by now. These things can send me back into doubting mode… Well, maybe I’m not doing things right. I’m so behind everyone else. I wish I was…. And so on. It’s not healthy, and it’s not okay. God made each of us differently on purpose, and He loves us all equally. One of my favorite go-to verses is:
For we are God’s masterpiece created in Christ Jesus to good works in which He has planned in advance for us to do. ~Ephesians 2:10
I absolutely love this verse, but sometimes in those moments of doubt, I have trouble really believing in God’s purpose for me. Something I felt like He was reassuring me of a lot as the days in 2014 continued to slip away was that my life might not look like everyone else’s, and that’s okay. I need to stop comparing and trying to live their life and start truly living mine with confidence in the unique individual God crafted me to be in Jesus Christ.
So without further due, my phrase for 2015 is…
My goal for this year is to be myself, and learn to love the things that cause my life to be unique. Yes, I have other goals, but somehow this phrase encompasses all of them in certain ways. I want my life to shine in a way that represents Jesus Christ. I want to embrace the passions I have, even if no one understands them. I want to be healthy, happy, and confident in my own body. I want to write with my whole heart even if I’m the only one who reads it; and I want to enjoy the fact that it’s totally and completely okay to be different…wonderfully and beautifully different.
You want to know a secret? This all applies to you too. I have no idea what sort of things people have told you about your life choices or appearance. I don’t know if people have laughed at your dreams or told you that you’re not where you need to be in life. I do know, however, that it’s hard to shake those negative attitudes. I for one am here to refute all of those comments and tell you that you are special and unique and that your passions do matter. So please, feel free to steal my 2015 phrase and make it your goal too. Let’s walk hand in hand into this fresh new year knowing that God gave us these lives to live and let’s be brave enough to live them beautifully different!